"Each man has his own music bubbling up inside him."

new screen name

2005-04-26T04:41:35Z

new screen name= mmmpuddlng. notice the L instead of an i. it will look like mmmPUDDlNG. the i wouldnt work. well thats all ive got to say. goodnight

2004

2005-01-02T03:38:32Z

2004, its over. probably the best year of my life so far. hopefully 2005 has as many or more good times ahead. ive noticed that i lost interest in this livejournal. i think i wrote less and less as my life has gotten better. i dont have anything to complain about anymore. im happier now than ive ever been before. sometimes its hard to believe how much things have changed over the past year. friends have changed and some arent friends anymore. i only really have about 2 or 3 real "friends" right now. im glad some things are different and some things are hard to believe. im almost done with high school and that is a very important benchmark to get past. i love the thought of moving out and going to college. spending time with the one person that i can talk to about anything and everthing. well i guess i dont really have anything else to say rather than i hope everyone else had as good a year as i did. lets hear it for a good new year!

brightmoonshade @ 2005-01-01T17:17:00

2005-01-01T22:18:26Z

not being able to drive is not a good thing at all.

brightmoonshade @ 2004-12-26T11:15:00

2004-12-26T16:15:40Z

cieldumien1= sn now. other one fucked up

brightmoonshade @ 2004-12-16T16:29:00

2004-12-16T21:29:29Z

entry deleted

brightmoonshade @ 2004-11-01T13:33:00

2004-11-01T18:36:59Z

math question for you:

there are 3 people that got a hotel room together. the cost of the room is 30 dollars so they all pay 10 dollars.the owner likes them so he tell a guy that works there to give them 5 dollars back. while walking to the room the guy puts 2 of the dollars in his pocket because he didnt know how to split 5 dollar bills 3 ways. so he gives the people a dollar each. so they each ended up paying 9 dollars. 9X3=27 correct? plus the two dollars they guy put in his pocket equals 29. what happend to the other dollar???

brightmoonshade @ 2004-10-01T22:21:00

2004-10-02T03:38:35Z

i dont really update this thing very often anymore. i guess i really dont have anything important to write about. lately i havent been hanging out with anyone so if your my friend and i havent hung out with you, im sorry i dont mean to stay away from you, i just have been busy. i worked from 2-9:30 tonight, came home made some left over noodles, put a load of laundry in and started cleaning my room and here i am now. i was looking through my old entries and ujournal entries and i was pretty stupid.thats all there is to say about that. i was thinking about where i was one year ago and a lot has changed. mostly good changes. i would just like to say that distance is the thing i hate the most out or all things i cant to anything about. time is another. i guess your happiness has to even out with your sadness and anguish, but man i wish the sadness thing wouldnt just randomly hit me. i hate feeling sad or lost or whatever the feeling. i already know only two people are going to actually read this so it doenst really matter that i am updating. sigh. i hate being in richmond. usually when i am here i feel lonley. i hate this feeling. ben gibbard says good funny. this journal entry was pretty much a way to soak up some time. because as i said im alone right now. noone talking to me. no one to laugh with or make inside jokes with....well i better go finish cheaning my room. bye.

brightmoonshade @ 2004-08-27T14:57:00

2004-08-27T20:00:05Z

this is an older thing to put, but i just thought id put it so you knew. hehe

adam
LOVES
kaitlin

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Love Level: 100%

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brightmoonshade @ 2004-08-19T23:28:00

2004-08-20T04:44:47Z

im updating now. i hope more than two people comment this time. i hate wrinting and no one commenting. k so im bored and decided i could update just for fun. a spark of interest of playing music has apeared in my head. id like to play music with people. i guess brent wants to play with me some and nic does too. today was a wierd but good day. i saw some old friends that i havent hung out with in a while. i hung out with nic and played music and we had a pretty good time. we went to visit chris at work and right after we walked out of the door todd was running tward me. i jumped into his arms. hehe. brett, rachel, poter, and lopeman were with him too so we all went to el rodeo. after that i took nic home and went to chris' house, we hung out for quite a long time. talking, listening to music and what not. it was a pretty good day.i just wish i could have seen kaitlin that would have made it a great day. and getting a job would have been nice too. hehe. i took my brother to the bank earlier today about 3ish and i ran into brent henderson. we talked for like an hour just abour random stuff. movies, jokes, people, and all that jazz. i kind of right now just wish i could find a few guys who wanted to play some music with the same music interest as me. i dont know i know its a wierd thing but it was a lot of fun when the chess club, goodnightneverland days were going on. lots of things have changed since then. some good some bad. romance for me and some of my other friends have gotten really good. my old friends have all moved on from the old days and some want things to be the same and others dont. i dont know. hehe. i have such a good life. sometimes i take it for granted. sometimes i dont really feel like its the best but actually i coundnt ask for more without being selfish. heh. my school day is really easy and short. i have a little money but id really like having money like i used to have when i had a job. i REALLY want a job as soon as possible.man i should update this thing more often so i dont randomly write these long multi issue entries randomly. hehe. well id really like it if everyone would comment. give me something to read. tell me what you think of me. tell me what youve been up to. tell me something. ask me questings. do whatever. just comment. please. well im off to bed now. goodnight.

schedule change

2004-08-13T15:52:53Z

p2 v hero re -dawkins
p3 gl mystery -williams
p4 homeroom -wier
p5 economics -polk-meek
p6 algebra 2 -koger

school

2004-08-07T23:43:51Z

p2 economics - polk meek
p3 gl mystery- williams
p4 homeroom- wier
p5 resource- bartel
p6 algebra 2- koger
out!!!

other than having koger that doesnt sound bad at all. hehe. woooo! tell me if you have a class with me. and what happend to mr wolfe teaching mystery?

brightmoonshade @ 2004-07-27T11:40:00

2004-07-27T16:59:32Z

so, i didnt get the hastings job. yup. im ok with it though.ive decided that i will now apply to some food places. i didnt want to work at one but i guess thats all i have now. i applied to mcl today and i wonder how that will go. oh well. bye bye
comment with places i should apply to if you know of any.

im a copy cat!!!

2004-07-25T05:32:46Z

1. By what name do you know me?
2. What song reminds you of me?
3. What makes me unlike anyone you know?
4. What is my best quality?
5. Where do you see me in ten years?
6. What's one thing about me you don't understand, and wish you did?
7. How do you think I'm going to be reborn?
8. Do you find me attractive?
9. Would you date me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. What's one thing you don't like about me?
12. Can you see us as friends five years from now?
13. What's a band you know I love?
14. Who has a bigger schlong, Jesus or Satan?

brightmoonshade @ 2004-07-22T12:28:00

2004-07-22T17:32:35Z

i may have just gotten a job at hastings. i have to have a meeting with the guy charles that hates me. the meeting is on monday so i hope it goes well. if so ill be working by august. that would be really nice. i miss having money. dean thinks ill be alright. he thinks im a "good guy". hehe. well thats all there really is, and i cant wait for fort wayne dustin! wooo! bye bye

brightmoonshade @ 2004-07-20T00:58:00

2004-07-20T05:58:51Z

"if poop tasted like twislers, my mom would eat her poop alllll the time"
-good times at kings island

brightmoonshade @ 2004-07-17T08:56:00

2004-07-17T13:57:35Z

i, am 18. wooooo! lol.

brightmoonshade @ 2004-07-04T00:28:00

2004-07-04T05:32:34Z

things are going well so far. i had a interview at target and i am turning in my app for family video in the morning. id rather work at family video than target but both seem better than my old job. today was the fireworks. it rained for a bit than they decided that they would have them anyways. the rain stoped while they were lighting the fireworks. 2 firemen got hurt so they stopped the show. it was still a good show to me. i was sooo cold though. hehe. tomorrow i will be going with kaitlin to her aunts house. after that i think my aunt is having a little get together. i just may go to that too. well....im getting sleepy so im going to hit the sack. nighty night. comment!!!

brightmoonshade @ 2004-07-03T01:00:00

2004-07-03T06:02:32Z

a lot of stress is off of my back now. my job in which i have hated for over 2 1/2 out of the 3 years that ive worked there is no longer in my life. i quit it today. my boss was being really mean to me and my sister and he said mean things about how he didnt need us so i quit. yeah so....i need to find a new one soon. but all in all im glad im done there. i dont like kids or my boss so it really wasnt the place for me to be. if you have any job ideas comment and tell me. hehe. thanks. bye bye

brightmoonshade @ 2004-06-26T10:41:00

2004-06-26T15:43:37Z

i dont really have anything important to write right now but i just thought id update anyways....well if there is any funny storys or anything that people would like to tell just make a comment out of it. i need another nap. bye bye

brightmoonshade @ 2004-06-17T00:50:00

2004-06-17T06:02:56Z

has anyone else noticed how much things have changed in the past, lets say year? man, a lot has happened in a year. friendships made and lost. relashionships made once again friendships lost. i kind of wish things could go back to about like 2 or 3 months ago. i was happy and so were a few other people, well jenny, you werent as happy so im glad you are happy now. but i want more people to be happy. there is no reason for arguments and fights. there really arent. i wish everyone would just put aside whatever they have against each other and just be friends again. it is hurting people that are very important. people that still care about each other. it just seems like some people are missing each other and that could all be changed by talking in person. i know im guilty of the same thing. i have been pretty stupid in arguing and retaliating with other people. i have seen people sad because they feel that they are the reason for the arguments and i dont like seeing people sad. expesially people i love and care about. my ear hurts... all im trying to say is if you read this and think you may be guilty or this call the person that you are fighting/arguing with and just ask them to come over and talk to you. i totally understand some people that feel that they have allready tried and the other person just seems to be blind to what they are doing. you have to think, this is the summer and plans were made and some will be spoiled for more than just one person. regret is just part of being wrong, if you think you were wrong or even if the other person was wrong and you want to talk to them about it you should just call them or something. get ahold of them.when people are away from each other because of an argument they start seeing and thinking things in their head about anger tward the person, hate against the reasoning for it and so on. you may not feel it right away but it seems to happen eventually. dont let it build up in my head, and if you do just let it out to someone that loves you or even cares about you. they will help. well..it they truelly care about you they will help you. well....i guess this entry was made by seeing and thinking about things that are making people sad and i dont like it. i just want all this stupid high school dramma to just be behind us. thats all i have to say tonight. im sorry if this makes anyone anoyed with me or angry or whatever they might negatively feel about me. i know there are people that hate me, and dislike me and stuff. but i know someone loves me and thats all that matters. well...im off to bed now and hope this may shine some light on some positive thinking toward making up with each other. thank you and goodnight. bye bye

brightmoonshade @ 2004-05-21T20:33:00

2004-05-22T01:39:47Z

this will probably be my last entry for a while. its not really going to be an entry, but more of an offer. if anyone would like to figure out where to go from where we are at. like maybe if there was a big conflict going on or something like that i think they should probably call my house at 935-2432 soon and maybe ill ask them to come over and maybe we could talk and figure out what is going on. it may be a better summer for everyone if we could just sit and talk. things were said that were not needed to be said. i admit that. i think everyone who said anything would. well that is my offer im just trying to end this in the kindest way. if you dont take my offer than ill understand. bye

brightmoonshade @ 2004-05-20T23:54:00

2004-05-21T04:55:25Z

conan o'brian is hilarious

brightmoonshade @ 2004-05-20T23:15:00

2004-05-21T04:18:02Z

erg, school. i dont really like it at all. im really glad its almost summer. summer will be fun. i really like working at the camp. its so sucluded and fun, we only get about 40 kids a week as aposed to me having to watch near 90 kids in one room. yeah, if you didnt know that means it is more or a relaxed atmosphear. summer will be a little different than i thought it would be but it will still be a great summer. i cant wait to get done with school for this year. senior year will be easy. well im done with this one. bye bye

easter...

2004-05-19T02:09:09Z

HILLARD'S ARTICLE reveals that Easter and its customs have ancient and nearly universal origins, roots which were concerned with the most basic aspects of life.

Our friend the Easter Hare (or Bunny, as you prefer) and his cart of eggs are borne of those roots. To know how this myth became associated with Easter requires that we examine Easter's association with a number of ancient symbologies.

LUNAR ASPECT

Easter is not really a solar festival, but rather one of the moon. The name Easter comes to us from the Saxon Eostre (synonymous with the phoenician Astarte), goddess of the moon. From the most ancient times, this goddess was the measurer of time. Her name as we know it (moon) comes from the Sanskrit masófrom ma, to measureó and was masculine (as it was in all the Teutonic languages).

Although this seems to suggest some confusion of sex, we can assume from the earliest mythologies that the deities were androgynous and sex depended upon the relationship to causes, whether active or passive. Since the measurement of time was an active process, the full moon was considered masculine.

According to an ancient document1 the moon as measurer of our days was chosen over the sun, since it seemed most natural to adopt a system that harmonized both the cosmos and humanity. The most likely choice was manifest in the cycle of the moon and the physiological phenomenon of mother and child. The lunar month of 28 days (four weeks of seven days each) gave 13 periods in 364 days, equivalent to the solar year of 52 weeks; thus the method of measuring by lunar terms. (And here we can make a connection between the female estrus and the goddesses Eostre and Astarte.)2

How, though, do these revelations about our lunar measurer relate to the Easter Bunny or, more appropriately, the Easter Hare?

A clue to the answer is found within the paintings and fables of artists and storytellers of the Far East. These artists often painted the moon with rabbits racing across its face. The Chinese, in particular, have represented the moon as a rabbit pounding rice in a mortar.

The rabbit's association with the moon is partly explained by two stories. In one Buddha places him there as payment for a favor in which Rabbit voluntarily gave himself as food for one of Buddha's hungry friends. In another, a rabbit, with nothing else to offer a hungry, weary Indra, jumps into a fire, cooking himself for the deity (a timeless example of humankind's self-serving fables). Out of gratitude, Indra placed the rabbit in the moon.

If we consider the phases of the moon in its waxing (masculine) and waning (feminine), and accept the notion that the moon at full intensity is the Destroyer of Darkness or, as Hillard says, "sign of new life and the messenger of immortality," we can appreciate the honored position to which the rabbit has ascended.

A number of explanations account for this hare/moon symbiosis. One is that the hare is nocturnal and feeds by night; another is that the hare's gestation period is one month long. And, it was believed that a rabbit could change its sexólike the moon. Other stories in Sanskrit and Hindu connect the rabbit to the spots on the moon (related to the story above); to stories of hares dwelling upon the shores of the moon; and as mortal enemy of the lion (sun).

betch didnt know that did ya. heh. bye bye

brightmoonshade @ 2004-05-14T22:39:00

2004-05-15T03:40:54Z

why the fuck be around people that are just going to find little things wrong with you? and maybe the things wrong with you arent even your fault at all. why the fuck do people do that?

nevermind.